Feeling Sucks
Initially, I was thinking that its a brand new year and I should forget all the unhappiness in Year 2008 and have a fresh and good year of 2009. I have told myself to forgive and forget, ignore any nonsense given by the idiotic farking manager and don't make myself angry or sad. But but.... Its only less than a week in Year 2009, I'm back to square one again. Why is it always me? Why can't they understand more? Do they understand that working in a branch without much authority and trust is very hard to work. Worst of the worst, having to work with such a blardy kuku is farking irritating. If the problem lies with me, I should reflect my ownself but if the problem lies with everybody, don't the bosses should talk to that farker and ask him to reflect? Why are they still putting blame on me while he committed the fault?
Just now in office, I broke down. It's not cos I'm sad but cos I'm feeling very angry. Angry till one cry! Can you imagine that? Angry till cry! This feeling really sucks. Had spoken to Kitty over msn earlier, her words knocked my sense.
If you are always not feeling happy and don't like the place you work in, then so what if they pay you alot? Staying in a working environment which you don't like is as if you are living in hell.
Hence, I've came to a conclusion and I believe that everybody reading will know what is that. Oh! I too have to thank my lebi Princess Yvonne. She is there when I need to hear some familiar voice. Although she don't what happen, she just keep quiet and hear me out. She console me.. That's what I needed most. Pal, you are the best! *wink* Love ya! Opps.. Wondering the kong long will jealous mah? Hehehe..
Phew! Feeling much better now after pouring out.. Guess at times, I do need to vent out my anger and not making myself stress up.. You too need to do the same, having a relax time so you will not be stress wor!
Labels: Berlin whining, Berlin workstuff, Berlin's own thoughts