Your Blood tells your Character

I have received an email from a friend aka ex-colleague Lindy. The mail is indeed worth my time in reading it. You too should spend a little of your time to read this post.. Get to know yourself better is the way leading to success.

Isn't it cute? This brings out my day.. Ermmm.. I would say its pretty much true.. Hahahaha.. How about you?

P/S : Sorry if some of the pictures are too small for you to read.. Try to click it.. If otherwise, sorry den...

After so long

Haven't been online to update my blog frequently recently. Either I am in foul mood or I am too tired or too busy..

My mood for the past few weeks is like roller coaster. I do not know where to start as its like shattered pieces in my brain.. Plus, I don't really want to reckon back the bad memories. All I can say, my heart is dead towards my full time job and also my part time job.. My enthusiam seems lost in both my jobs. I find it rather hard for me to spend my worthwhile time on them. All I do now is, go to work then go home after work. No more additional feelings will be put in. To be frank, I seriously hate this kinda feelings but but.. (unless things gonna change for good)..

Over the weekends, We (me, Karen, Royce, Vincent & Geling) celebrated hubby's birthday at the chalet.. Guess what? I just got to know yesterday from Yvonne that she was at the chalet too. Hahaha.. So coincidence but ofcos we did not meet up.. Had taken some photos on the celebrations, will upload the photos soon.

And in another less then 9 days, I am heading to Korea for my long holiday. Although for only 8 days but I really hope it helps me. I need to recharge my engery in work. Hope I come back with a better luck and all the "Xiao Ren" will leave me for good...

Something is keeping in my heart which makes me really uneasy and all of us jollywell knows that a heavy thunderstorm is gonna happen after the holiday. But the true will have to be disclose soon. Shall update till then when its time to come to a light. I only pray everything will remains the same as it is now.

I am so ......

Emotionally tired

Physically tired

Very Pek chek

Very Sian

So in short. I am not in a very good mood wor.. One slight issue will lit the wire lead to my bomb..

Music Reviews - Take A Bow by Rihana

Went to KTV with Rina a few months back ago and saw her singing this song, then so happen to hearing it from the radio again. So I decided to post this song out. Not a bad song..



Hope you guys like it ya!

Lost of Mind

Today is Sunday and I am rotting at home don't what to do. Basically sleep, eat and sleep and eat again. Hahahah.. Supposed to meet Yvonne to bring her pup for "her" 3rd injection but ended up, she woke up late and the clinic had close. So appointment had to be cancelled and push to next Sat.

Basically, after a trip to Malaysia yesterday, my whole body aches now.. Reason simple, walked too much. We went to Holiday Plaza and later went to Johore Jaya Jusco. Had bought alot of stuffs. I bought a blet, a hair clip, a wooden comb, 2 T-shirts (one for Hubby and the other for myself, both the same and is printed ones, with the Super Mario picture. =)), 2 bras and 6 panties and some DVDs (original one hor), coconuts and some Dunkin donuts. Wahahaha.. Had shop for few hours non stop and basically now, my whole body ached.

As for Sunday today, I feel that I have no motivatio to anything. Nothing to do is something that will kill me. I think, I need to plan something before I lost my motivation.

*Yawnz* Think I am gonna hit the sack again.. Shall go to my dreamland and think about what to do to motivate myself.. Arrrhhhh.. I forget to bath for Niki again. Shall do it tomorrow then.. Tataz!!!!

My First Mustafa Encounter

Yesterday, I meet up with Yvonne for a shopping at Mustafa. Actually we plan for KTV session but she last min got "Tao-sa" throat so no choice gotta cancel the session and go shopping instead. Still remember once she said went to Mustafa for shopping and had lotsa fun there so I told her why didn't bring me there. Finally, she brought me to Mustafa... But but... Too be frank, I can't stand the smell at certain lvl where "they" are all gathered. But the rest of the place is still okay for me.. Pls don't get the wrong idea that I am racist or what, its just I can't stand the smell only. Pls pardon me.

Had quite alot of fun there. After shopping for 2 hours, it seems that we still haven't completed the whole of Mustafa.. I really much like to return to shop again but I can't stand the smell. So how? Any suggestions? Back to the topic, I had bought a Winne the Pooh 3D Jigsaw puzzle coin bank and a doggie pencil case. For Yvonne, she bought quite alot of things. She bought a bedsheet, an angel wing for her room deco, a part mask for her room deco too, a jewel box to keep her cosmetics and ermmm.. I think no more liao.. Hahahah..

After shopping, she went out with her KTL club for dinner and ofcos I went back home straight for a good rest. Shall upload the photos took at Mustafa with Hubby and Yvonne.. And the stuffs I bought.

Tata thenn...

An Email to her...

Some what I am feeling better though I am still in this sickening office. The moments of me sending out my resume via emails is making me tremendously happy. Whenever my HP ring, I will be a little over high. Why the fark am I so happy. Simple.. The thoughts of me leaving this place is making me happy and I am seriously very happy.

Another thing which is making me happy is cos I've send her an email to pour out all my unhappiness. And today, she sounded very polite without all her sarcastic words. (I supposed she knows that I am about to resign soon)

Hi JXXX,

It takes me lots of courage to type out this email which carries all my troubles from the bottom of my heart.

I do not know why this afternoon you were asking me about if our side is very busy and you are wondering why our side got so many hiccups since no much cases. To be frank, recently, lots of reporting cases over at my side. You may say that I could have just pass the form too them but some of them do not understand English and want us to file for them. Other then reporting case, I still have the driving instructor cases.. Renewals, prepare and post out to them and new cases is rather alot for the past few days. I am trying hard to clear it fast as its the early week of the month.. Pls don't get the wrong idea of me complaining my workload, to be frank, I am fine with the workload but I need some time to clear it especially early weeks of the month.

As for the estimate, I seriously have done my best to chase him for it.. But all he tell me is he is very busy ask me to wait if not other wise he would just keep mum.. I am at the verge already. I don't know what can I do.

Probably, you could advise me what have I done wrongly so I can try to change from there. I also don't want to have anything unhappy among employer and employee.. I also wants to apologise to you for my harshness lately as I can't stand his nonsense.. He is the one giving problem and ended up everyone gets the blame which I feel unfair.. I always don't understand why he is always busy and yet not in the office nor workshop. I am sorry if I am not lessening your burden in works but giving you problems.

Thanks.

Rgds,
Berlin Lim (Ms)

Sounded emo, sounded pissed off.. Yes I am! Yesterday in fact I am emo and pissed off. They drove me to a corner where I can't take it any longer and I chose to vent it out via email to her. I don't want to suffer any longer.. It's enough of nonsense.

Alright, signing out now.. Mood very good so far.. Need to *pops* champagne lohhh.. Bye..

My Mood

FOUL MOOD

BAD MOOD

IRRITATED MOOD

PISS OFF MOOD

LEAVE ME ALONE MOOD

Am I Really Tired?

With each day passing by, the thoughts of resigning is getting stronger very single day.. I am still holding on to it (I seriously don't know for what particular reason. Prolly, I feel that I have owe them a favour.

Every single working day is like a roller coaster to me. My mood will be very nice in the morning but half way thru the morning before lunch, nonsense starts. Lady boss will start to talk sacarsticly or humiliate me with words like "use abit of your brain / cannot help our side here arh, you side so free but sounded like busy" The fact is she doesn't know what is going on my side, she would just spill out all the words. Worst part is she doesn't even give me the chance to tell her what the hell I am suffering in the office. I have to picks up the phone, attend customer over the phone and walk in customer at the same time. I have to type the estimate for the vehicle damaged, do insurance invoicing and renewals. How the fark can I be free as she tots.

No business, she vent her anger on me. Too busy, she too vent her anger on me.. I had enough!! I no need any appreciation from them but I just don't want to be her anger vent machine. I have send out a few application for new jobs. If I can find a suitable one, I will not hesitate to wait for the bonus, I will give her the letter with a 3 mths of notice..

Haiz.. My morning and the rest of the day is just ruin by one phone call from her.. I HATE THAT KINDA FARKING FEELING.. Day by day, I am changing into a zombie. How about you? Love your job? Love your environment? Love your bosses? Me? NOPE I am getting sick of it.. THEY ARE JUST PAIN IN THE ASS! (no more pain in the neck)

My weekends

Weekend gonna end soon.. Basically my Saturday and Sunday in not a very excited one.. No "Chionging", no thrilling but a slow and lazy day.

Saturday morning as usual going to office. Going to office now a days is a draggy one. I have to drag myself out of bed and also have to drag myself to get on the bike then drag myself to get down the bike and walk into the office. What is my world coming to? I have no idea too. But no worries. My trip to Korea is coming. Counting down from now onwards and I am really looking forward to it.. =) Back to the topic.. After work, I rush home to get myself prepare for my family gathering at my bro house.. (Sorry for no photos taken.)I've to pack swimming costume and some of the seafood.. We are going to have a BBQ session for our dinner.

Me and mum left home at about 3pm to CompassPoint as I wanna buy a new set of swimming costume.. Going horizontally liao.. Need to get a new set.. Hubby came at about 4 pm to fetch us to bro house. We reach bro house about 430pm and we went straight to the swimming pool for a swim. After swimming, we went back to prepare for the BBQ.. Guess what? I have been thinking that BBQ is using the charcoal type.. But I was wrong. Totally wrong.. Their BBQ is using gas de wor.. Its my first time.. This time, me this chef of the day got caught by this situation. Food that I BBQ-ed is either burnt if not its not cook or otherwise, it will be overcook and got dried up.. Arhh. My reputation got ruin by the "Gas-BBQ".. After BBQ, we went headed home. When I reached home, I took medication for the allergy as I've taken so many seafood like prawns, crabs and sotong.

Sunday morning was not a good morning to me. I woke up at 9 plus as my stomach is upset again. After "Lao-saing" I went back to bed as the medication is causing me too drowsy. I sleep until 5 plus in the late after and headed out for a dinner at Sizzler with Karen, Royce, Vincent and Geling. Wow... What a full dinner.. I could hardly walk. Hahha..

Now at home, sitting infront of the lappy typing this post, I am getting sleepy again. Its not cos I am tired, but the medication is still taking effective. Whenever I took this medication, I am always like drowsy for the next 24 hours. Imagine how heavy the dosage is.. But thou its strong, but its good, cos I make me sleep... Right now, I seriously need some sleep and relaxing time, I am too too far tired and stress up liao.. Once again, looking forward to my holiday.. Hahahah.. I wanna count down liao ba..

Is it My Shelf Life is up?

I have always been thinking that not only products have shelf life but too living beings. Take example for my job, still remember my first resignation was about 3 years ago and that's also the first time, I feel that my shelf life in my company had come to an end and therefore, I should leave the place to hunt for a new shelf life. But after about a year outside, I actually came back to the old office (which is my present office) as my lady boss had called me and ask me to help her. Since I feel her sincerity on asking me back (pls take note, not cos of monetary sincerity as I am still getting back the same pay before I leave the place). At that time, when she needed me the most, she told me in future if there is anything unhappy, I could bring out and tell them, rather then I just keep it until one fine day, I explode and leave the place again. Well, @ that time, I was actually dumb enough to believe. Someone ever told me "Hey dude, didn't you know a leopard won't changes its spots." Back then, I was like "Aiya, I believe her lah" (In my motto, I will always believe in ppl.)



NOW, right now, I am really feeling bad. All the sincerity that time seems lost. I can't find back the days where we have good talks whenever things happen. Ever since from the time, I borrowed money from them (which they offer to lend it for my house renovation when I wanted to loan from bank) everything seems to have change. My colleague Uncle Bee told me, If I borrowed the money from them, I will have to stay right at the bottom of their foot liao. I told him " NO lah, they won't be like tat de lah. Money and working is totally different issue. Some more it was them offer me de, not I approach them de wor.. How to reject their offer since, I do not need to pay for the interest fee" But now, I seriously regretted. It seems that, they thought that I had borrow the money from them and I can't leave the place and so they can do or say anything they want without using their ass to think first.



Many things actually happen ever since I borrow the money from them. Its all I keep in my heart but recently, it's getting from bad to worst and even hurting to my pride and my feelings. I had it exploded and came to a decision. Return the money to them and see the situation. If they are still giving me that type of stupid farking attitude, I will leave forever and never step back here again. If not, I will "tahan" until after bonus then leave.. Leave is for sure, its only a matter of when.



Well enough of whining and I believe lots of my friends will say "Blah, again office de lor.. Nothing much to say liao meh... Always got this problem den just leave the place for goodness sake lah.. Keep complaining also no use de mah.. Still have to "ren" since they are your bosses and you have no choice, you are taking their money and you have to oblige to them..." SO no that's why I "Lan Lan" have to whine here instead lor..

P/S : Now starting to hunt for job. So anyone wants to recommend or hire me.
A little description of my job scope here. Basically, I am in motor claims line. We help car owners to proceed t/party claims when they are involved in accident. My job is to attend to them, help them in E-filing, explain how the whole claims goes. How much chances they have in winning? Then next is to arrange insurance company to arrange surveyor to survey the damage vehicle (meaning, I have to type out the estimate too). Next I have to renew Driving Instructors insurance. Yup Yup, my company does insurance too. I have to send invoices to the owners for after renewing the policy. (So not only renew nia). I have to do some basic accounting stuffs too. Then next, I have to arrange manager or boss to meet up customer.(Machiam Secretary) Oh, not forgetting, I have to do invoicing to insurance company after vehicle repaired and followed by negotiate with them for settlement. After settlement, need to arrange owner to come back to sign the form to agree settlement and close the file accordingly after receiving the money.. Like bangala lei.. So employ me lah.. Leave me msg wor.. I sure reply de...