Farewell my dear friend

It's wee hours in the morning. Not feeling a little sleepy, maybe slept too much earlier this afternoon. Yvonne is leaving this evening to a place where she can find happiness. I do really hope she can find her happiness and cast her depression far far away..

Recently so many things have happen to her. I believe leaving this place will be a better choice for her. And I believe that her career will take off to another level.. Will I miss her? Well, that's ofcos. But whats there to worry off! The technology is so advance now, we can msn or even web chat! The only worry is that this blur sotong can't take care of herself well. She always fall sick.. "Gal you need to learn to take care of yourself. Make sure you don't fall sick wor"

Last but not least, I hope she will enjoy her trip to the fullest and never the least, don't forget the friends and family here.. We are right here waiting for you.. If you face any prob do call me or msn me, Okay! Bon Voyage.. All the best!

Officially counting down!

Above is the countdown of my days left in CHM. To be frank, its not easy. Having to know that they are pricking bones out from the egg and yet you can't do anything to stop it. All I can do now is to endure the pain and hope time flies. With all the jobs that I have to rush to complete before I leave is really stressful.. Ever after I've tender, I'm feeling very stress and can't sleep well at night.

My body seems can't coordinate with my brain anymore. I feel like my body is going to give way soon. Hoping for my short trip to come soon before a fresh start of the new job. Guess probably I should head down to Polyclinic to get an MC from the doctor for my insomia due to stress. The sleepless night is really killing me. I don't know how long more I can endure with the lost of my beauty sleep..

People around me are all getting sick. Especially my dear Yvonne, she have been down with her flu bugs for a long time and recently she is getting from bad to worst. Due to flu virus attack her voice box, she finally lost the battle, she lost her voice!! Supposed to meet up last Sunday with her BF Adrain to go Changi Airport T3 to eat Popeye then go prawning de. But all thanks to her flu bugs, we have to cancel the whole plan. Wondering if we can make it this Sunday mah? Peeps, pls take very good care of yourself and don't fall sick till like Yvonne. She had bedridden for the past 1 week. Get well soon babe!

Short post for this. Will write another one soon.

人生 - LIFE

人生 - 人生本来就是喜奴无常。往往想要的都不能实现。 要求太多反而会伤的深，所以让自然走向你就不会伤的那么深。顺其自然是最好的办法。 想太多不就是让自己不开心，让自己烦脑。

有时后我在想，为什么我的身边的人为什么会那么的不开心。看到他们那么的不开心我会不自然的也跟着不开心。我很想帮助他们不过家家有本难念的经，只希望他们能开开心心的生活。虽然我不能帮你什么但是我经神上支持你哟！

说到这里，我也在想为什么人总是要等到失去了才知道后悔。可是都以不能挽回了。人生就是这样， 它不会等你去后悔，然后在让你拥有。不见了，就是不见了，要找回来也不能找了。机会流走了就没了，把握机会才是最好的办法，千万不要放手。幸福是自己找的，它不会自己来的。

I'm having hard times writing the above words. Hahahah.. It proves that I haven't been using Chinese words for a long long time. Think I should write more Chinese post to keep myself with the Chinese words.

My dear friend is facing her downs again. Can hardly help her to ease the pain, all I can do is too listen and talk her out. Hoping she will be strong again. Seeing or hearing her like this is a pain. Wonder when can I hear her true laugh again. Hoping the man she is with will support her and held her in his arms. Being in love, we have to learn to give and take. Love don't come so easily and once lost, it is lost forever. We have to learn to give and take, we have to learn each others problem and too we have to learn to listen each others problem. Why have doubt in each other when you love your the other part? Believe in each other is the key to the success of the fruitful love. Nobody can help you in this, only you yourself can do to the success of love.

At this time, I hope they will be find. Facing problem together and not run away. She is always doing things to protect him and yet He don't know what is she thinking about. He every time wants to talk out with her but He don't dares too as he worry She will be annoyed. Love is not like this. Understand what your other part want to help you and say what you need to say without hurting your other part.

End of the day, love is around you. All you need is held out your hand and to grab your chance.

Interesting Memo to Employee

Today is rather a relax and stress free day to pass.. In another 10 mins, I'm officially off. But still have to work tomorrow. That is the worst part of my working life. Have to work on alternate Saturdays where you know your hubby is at home waiting for you. Anyhow, my mood today is still okay till now.. Today is another special day for Singaporeans too.. The BIG TOTO DAY.. I think the prize for today is 1 million. Have you got yours? Well me, ermmm, I didn't actually bought one until Winnilicious asked me and said that at least buy a chance for $0.50. Too be frank, I am always not that lucky and I know that the ticket will eventually be part of the rubbish in the bin. But in any case, I wish my friends and readers good luck and hope God of Fortune look up to your house and knock at your door.. *Hoping for one to knock my door too*...

Later will be going for sushi buffet @ Hougang Plaza with Princess Yvonne and hubby. It's gonna be another bloated dinner. Can't wait for her to come over to my office and head for dinner then..

Back to the topic I wanna blog about is regarding a post I came across and I've ask the owner of the blog for permission to copy over the post to mine as I really wanna share this interesting post to all my friends and readers. And it could be cos of this post, it brightens up my day. Oh! I can't forget to give credit to Winnilicious for the post. Here's the post..

To: All Staff,

As you know, the realities of the downturn have hit home and I am forced to introduce the following cost-cutting measures to help shore up our beloved company. I know you will understand that the pain is temporary and the gains will be there for all of us to reap when the company comes through these difficult times stronger… and ready to ride the next big
wave. So with immediate effect, all staff will be required to adhere to the following:

a. The cups on the two vending machines are to be recycled. Annabelle has already serialised them.

b. Sabbatical leave: Executives booked for New York will now go to Kukup in Johor Bahru instead. Senior executives can go further - up to Yong Peng.

c. Our chalet lease in Pulau Ubin has ended. However, as the management takes a keen interest in staff welfare, we have arranged with Francis (from Admin Dept) to rent out one of his rooms at Blk 923, Pasir Ris Drive. His flat was chosen for its proximity to the sea and you can still see Ubin from the window.

d. Entertainment claims: Staff will be required to go for a 30-min demonstration by Raj from Finance Dept, who will show you how to withdraw your credit card slowly from your wallet (58 secs), so that others at a business lunch will inadvertently beat you to it when the bill comes.

e. The Valentine's Day white chocolates (Deluxeur) which I gave out in January : Those of you who have yet to open the box, please return them (expiry date: Dec 2009).

f. Monthly Best Employee Award : The $1000 cash award will now be replaced by a box of Deluxeur white chocolates.

g. Annual Best Employee Award : The 14-day Disneyland/Hawaii tour and solid gold Rolex Oyster watch will be replaced by TWO boxes of Deluxeur white chocolates.

h. Medical: The Oxfordshire-Hopkins Medical Group will no more be on our panel. Annabelle will give you the address of Hong Tong Hong Medical Hall in Sungei Road. Bring you company pass for a 10% discount.

i. Country Club Memberships : Senior executives must return their membership cards to Annabelle, who will then register your name with Bishan Community Centre.

j. Transport Allowance : No reduction of rate! However, it will be paid on alternate months.

k. Gifts for clients : New choices. The Bohemian Crystal list will be replaced by the one from 7-eleven.

l. Annual Dinner & Dance : No change (March 20, yay!), but the venue is switched from The Ritz-Carlton to the void deck of Annabelle's flat in Ang Mo Kio Avenue 10.

m. Bonus : This time, staff welfare comes first! Instead of the usual amount, we raised it up to $2 million. Each employee will be given a Singapore Sweep ticket. The draw is on March 5.

From: Chief Financial Officer

Isn't it cute and funny.. I just resist laughing.. Hope you guys like it.. Hahahaha.. Once again thanks Winnilicious for this post.

How's My Own Life for 2008

In another 2 more weeks, we are heading to Year 2009. Time really flies, just a blink of eyes, a year have come to a near end. Once again, it's time to sit down and think hard for next year resolution or even recap our own life for year 2008. Since my previous post had mention about New Year Resolution, so I think I should not cover the subject. Hmmmm... Let's talk about my life for year 2008.

LOVE
Ups : Being with hubby for the year 2008 is smooth sailing path. Basically, I could say that the relationship in between us is getting stronger. I am always being loved and protected by him.. Hubby is always there to listen to my whining and at times even willing to let me vent my anger on him.. Our love had grown stronger as time past. Who says the longer a couple is together, the further the distant in between them will get. For us, we are just like any new couple. We still joke, talk anything and ofcos love to disturb each other.

Downs : Feeling rather lost when once, 4 of my friends gather around me saying I've taken my hubby for granted. The whole debate is about doing household chores. Hubby is not on my side and keep mum. At that point of time (attacked by 4 people), I control my tears, I explained and I tried to understand too. I felt heart broken when I know that hubby do mind I don't do household chores and is not there to support me.. The fact is he does everything by himself and ask me not to do it cos he don't want me to have backache. Ermm... Alright, everything is over, don't wish to bring the bad memories back.. Otherwise tears is passing by my eyes again.

Unforgettable : The holidays we had are really enjoyable. Having your love one beside you, walking through a place so new to you and yet not to worry of getting lost. Oh.. Nearly forgotten too.. The surprises that hubby gave me in the year 2008. He bought me a HP N95 (8GB) for Valentine's Day. He made me guess my pressie and brought me to my favourite Jap restaurant. When we reached the restaurant then he revealed my pressie to me.. The other unforgettable day is our 4 years wedding ann. We made each other to shop for the exchange gift in Ang Mo Kio Central with a budget of not more then $30.00. Having only a time limit of 1 hour, we both have to shop for each other's present separately. I still remember that I am running all over the entire building of Ang Mo Kio Hub. This is really fun. When we open the presents, we were giggling and then goes Hahahaha.. Both of us are "xin you ling xin". Our presents we bought exceed $30.00 but not more then $60.00 and was near to the same as each other. This is really sweet.. There are still many more surprises Hubby had given me but unable to list it, if not otherwise this post will really be a very long one.

Conclusion : To carry on this relationship. Hoping he will hold my hands till our hair turn grey and our skins crumpled. Love in between us will grow even stronger as time pass. Will try my very best to fulfil my duty as a wife and ofcos to support each other when trouble is looking up to us.

FAMILY
Ups : Nothing much happen except me & hubby moved out from my mum's house to our own love nest.. Having our own love nest is something we have been waiting for.. After moving out, the bond in between me and my mum gets better and she would try her best to cook our favourite food waiting for us to go back to her house for dinner. We would chat and joke after dinner. She show even more concern to us. The feeling is just ermmm.. Indescribable....

Downs : Still remember that me and my mum had a huge argument as she decided to sell her house and want to move into our home. Initial stage, I rejected and was very angry. Me and my mum even come to a stage whereby we did not even talk for near of 1 week. Then after hubby became our middle man and solve the problem, only then me and my mum is back to talking terms.

Unforgettable : Having a house warming with my mum, brother, sister & her family, brother & his family. We had steam boat as dinner and after that we gather around to watch movie and the kids will run around the house playing with Niki. This is the 1st time, everyone of us gather around for a dinner like this.

Conclusion : A peaceful family life is the success to your life. Cherish every members before you lose them. Reunion is the most important thing to do and I hope to have dinner in the coming New Year. Hmmm.. Shall go plan now when to do it..

FRIENDS
Ups : Nothing special on friends section except knowing a few new friends and too keep contacts with them. Have been spending quality time with few of my friends like Princess Yvonne, Karen, Rina, Victor and many other more.. Oh yes! I remember now, went out for prawning with Pingsters.. That was really a fun one, although I don't really know them.. Looking the way they were so happy when they had their prawns hooked up is so funny. Overall the outing is an enjoyable one. Then with the 1st time experience, I brought Rina & Victor there to prawn. Not a bad experience too..


Downs : Hmmm.. I do not have any extremely unhappy issue with friends in fact. I am that kinda forgive & forget person so I do no keep the bad things. Only thing that hit my mood is when Princess Yvonne was @ her most gloomy days. Trying to make her stand back to her own feet is not easy but will not give up my friend just like that. I am hoping that she can step out of her hermit crab shell one day.


Unforgettable : I am always happy with my friends around.. Hmm unforgettable ones will be like going KTV with friends from KFC.. We are like country pumpkin. We sing and dance in the room like nobody business. Going KTV with Princess Yvonne.. Talking nonsense and laugh like nobody business. Going East Coast Park or Pasir Ris Park for BBQ. Playing the Ultimate number game, the wackiest punishments like kissing the butt / belly button, dirty dance or even have the face draw with charcoal.


Conclusion : I need to spend even more quality time with my friends. I very much wanna catch up with my primary school mates and not forgetting my VBFF Esther. It's been a long time since I last meet her for coffee.. Shall plan 1 day for it.. "Hey Esther, when on earth will you be free for coffee." Then also BFF Princess Yvonne. I also want to go out with her more to places like prawning, picnic or even plan for chalet. But I hope she will be bring along her partner soon.. (I must help her ask too. "ANY TAKER FOR MY BFF!!!")

HEALTH
Ups : Getting healthy is always what I wanted and luckily for year 2008 no big issue happen. I am still in pink health so no worries....


Downs : There is a period of time that I am suffering from severe backache.. Had been lying on bed for 3 days... Being unable to move is very scary.. Imagine bedridden is nothing fun and enjoyable. Till now, the backache is still on and off but much better as compared to the previous time.


Unforgettable : 1st time in my life suffer from throat infection to the extend of losing the ability to speak. I am a very talkative person, can you imagine me being dumb... Gosh!! It really kill me.. I can't talk properly and people around me keep laughing at my high tone speech... Arrrgghhh.. But come to think now, it really sounds funny.


Conclusion : To keep my weight down so I can have a healthier life. To have my backache cure once and for all.

WORK
Ups : To speak the frank, I can't think or find any ups for my present job. Or probably, I would say at a period of time when my boss thought that I am planning to resign, so she treated me like a princess. Giving me the authority to settle my stuffs in my branch. But after a while, the "boss attitude" came back..

Downs : There are too much downs in my present job which I can even count with my 10 fingers and 10 toes. Practically, I am getting sick & tired of running the branch in this company. I have a farking irritated manager whom only know how to sleep during office hour, have breakfast during office hour. Not only that, this farking manager only know how to use his mouth to talk and yet do nothing. He is always busy but busy with what is a mystery to both me and my boss. The worst part is, my boss did nothing. Both boss & lady boss just kept quiet which I think that is really unfair. When problems occurred, arrows will usually be shot to me. Can you imagine technical issue somehow can become admin issue. There are alot of times I have told my lady boss regarding the issue of the farking manager being abusive of his powers. But still nothing was done. All she told me is, just treat him as a mentally ill patient. Do my job as it is and she will know how I clearly stand. The FACT is, when both boss and lady boss don't stand where I stand when things happen. In the end, I am the one who got arrowed with no reason. I had really enough of all the nonsense created by that farker..


Unforgettable : There was once my hubby was waiting in my office for me to knock off. Then out of a sudden, my boss came up to the office and start to rumble. I was shock and starred blanking @ him. After he stop rattling, I came back to my sense and tried to explain the whole issue. Guess what he say? "No need to explain okay. Got problem means got problem. It's your fault for not being oversee the whole case." I was like, WTF me again. It's the farker's fault. He interrupte me when I was talking to customer. Giving all the customer wrong information and later when customer complaints, boss push the responsibility to me. He told me I should stop him from attending to customer. "HEY BOSS!! Pls do note. He is already a near 40 farking bastard, he has both legs, arms, mouth and farking brain, how is it possible for me to stop him!" After boss told me off, he walk off from the office and left home. I was like heart broken @ the very point of time. Tears rush down, I was like how can I be treated in this way. IT'S UNFAIR!! Ofcos, hubby saw the whole issue and he ask me to resign and leave this god damn company. I was like stuck in the middle. I very much wanna leave but I can't leave until I found a good job.


Conclusion : I need to find another job. I need to leave this place once and for all. No more nonsense from the farking bastard. I had enough of all the nonsense. Shall start to hunt for a job after bonus. Guess bonus won't be much too.. I don't worth a single cents in this office. My 9 years of sacrificed don't worth a penny at all..


Alright, that's the end of my life review on Year 2008. Now sitting back and read through what I've written down knocks some sense to me. I am actually leading a pretty happy life which I can't complain off.. There are always ups and downs in life, if not otherwise, the whole life will be a stale water in a pale. So be proud of yourself and your own life. Nothing is more important than yourself. Love and pamper yourself more. Phew what a long post. Think shall end it here if not I think many of you guys are falling a sleep soon.. Tataz... XOXOX...

Could it be my lucky day?

I am so so so damn happy cos I finally found my precious Winnie the Pooh Pendant. I've been moody for the past 1 week and simply can't sit still when the thought of losing the pendant strikes me.

Wondering how I found it? Errmm, I should say it is rather mysterious. Yesterday night (in fact should be this morning) I was sleeping and half way through my sleep, I felt a pain on my left leg. It feels like as though something had cut the skin of my left leg. I woke up with my eyes still shutting tight and took the object that cuts me and left it on my side table. In my heart, I was thinking it should be the head of the Zipper which drop out from one of the pants.

Then early in the morning when I woke up, I went check out which pant's zipper is spoil. When I turn to the side table, I was like huh.. What!!! I FOUND IT!!! Hubby jumped out of the bed by my screams. He keep asking me where I found it, but I told him I really dunno.. It just come to me. Till now, I am still wondering if there is really fairy in this world. I've been thinking hard and hoping to find it back despite me & hubby comb the whole house. When I was about to give up finding, it came back to me... Huhhh.. Think I need to go buy 4D today, prolly I will win a big one. Maybe the fairies thinks I am a kind, cute and good girl so they help me to find it back.

Another funniest thing is, when I was reading Princess Yvonne's blog today, I had my tears drop. The latest post she had wrote touch my heart deeply. At least, I know that if I am in trouble I still have at least a friend stood by my side.. Hahaha.. I must say I am not that good as like what she say. I just feel that I should treat my friend with my sincerity. I always believe Jesus will be kind to any good boys & girls. "So gal, although my religious is Buddhism but still I too believe Jesus. And ofcos must thank you for appreciating me wor.. Oh yah one more thing, I belongs to the straight one with Hubby somemore wor.. U better don't fall in love with me wor.. Wahahahaha!!!"

After so long

Haven't been online to update my blog frequently recently. Either I am in foul mood or I am too tired or too busy..

My mood for the past few weeks is like roller coaster. I do not know where to start as its like shattered pieces in my brain.. Plus, I don't really want to reckon back the bad memories. All I can say, my heart is dead towards my full time job and also my part time job.. My enthusiam seems lost in both my jobs. I find it rather hard for me to spend my worthwhile time on them. All I do now is, go to work then go home after work. No more additional feelings will be put in. To be frank, I seriously hate this kinda feelings but but.. (unless things gonna change for good)..

Over the weekends, We (me, Karen, Royce, Vincent & Geling) celebrated hubby's birthday at the chalet.. Guess what? I just got to know yesterday from Yvonne that she was at the chalet too. Hahaha.. So coincidence but ofcos we did not meet up.. Had taken some photos on the celebrations, will upload the photos soon.

And in another less then 9 days, I am heading to Korea for my long holiday. Although for only 8 days but I really hope it helps me. I need to recharge my engery in work. Hope I come back with a better luck and all the "Xiao Ren" will leave me for good...

Something is keeping in my heart which makes me really uneasy and all of us jollywell knows that a heavy thunderstorm is gonna happen after the holiday. But the true will have to be disclose soon. Shall update till then when its time to come to a light. I only pray everything will remains the same as it is now.

My First Mustafa Encounter

Yesterday, I meet up with Yvonne for a shopping at Mustafa. Actually we plan for KTV session but she last min got "Tao-sa" throat so no choice gotta cancel the session and go shopping instead. Still remember once she said went to Mustafa for shopping and had lotsa fun there so I told her why didn't bring me there. Finally, she brought me to Mustafa... But but... Too be frank, I can't stand the smell at certain lvl where "they" are all gathered. But the rest of the place is still okay for me.. Pls don't get the wrong idea that I am racist or what, its just I can't stand the smell only. Pls pardon me.

Had quite alot of fun there. After shopping for 2 hours, it seems that we still haven't completed the whole of Mustafa.. I really much like to return to shop again but I can't stand the smell. So how? Any suggestions? Back to the topic, I had bought a Winne the Pooh 3D Jigsaw puzzle coin bank and a doggie pencil case. For Yvonne, she bought quite alot of things. She bought a bedsheet, an angel wing for her room deco, a part mask for her room deco too, a jewel box to keep her cosmetics and ermmm.. I think no more liao.. Hahahah..

After shopping, she went out with her KTL club for dinner and ofcos I went back home straight for a good rest. Shall upload the photos took at Mustafa with Hubby and Yvonne.. And the stuffs I bought.

Tata thenn...

Worst Week of the YEAR!

Yup yup.. Last week was the worst week of the year so far. I am very very very down since Friday till yesterday. Sorry to let all my friends worried about me. I just don't want to talk about it that time. Since its over already, I think I should at least give an explanation to my concern friends. (To be frank, till now, the my burning heart is still flaming.)

What happen last Friday was, I have been accused by my lady boss for something which I did not do. I have told the issue to her and she replied by saying "Nope, you did not say anything about it. You should use your brain, don't be so stupid lah" The words ran into my ears, pass through my heart and cut it then shot straight up to my brain and give it a hard know. I am utterly shattered by her words. She was the one who ask me to hold on first as she is busy to discuss the issue, the next moment when the timing is over, she just put the blame on me. I have been working in this company for the pass 10 years and this is wad I gain.. Sad, sad is the only word I can say for now.. My heart sank right to the bottom of my heart. Guess nothing can carry it back until I leave the office for good. I told myself, its okie, tomorrow will be a better day. Who knows! Saturday is another hard time to pass. Early in the morning, she brings up the whole topic again. When I tried to explain, she throw another word to me "Wrong is wrong, no need to explain, we need to admit we are wrong" I simply refuse this words to enter me, but it just force its way right into my heart and stab it. Yes, if I am in fault, I will admit it. Friends around me knows me well, if I did something wrong, I will definitely admit it. (Gan (3) Zuo (4) Gan (3) Dang (1)).. I am not a tortoise. But this time, I am not at fault at all.. How to admit fault when I am not at fault? I keep asking myself this question but till date still no conclusion. From then, my tears keep dropping, I simply can't concentrate on my work and thus spend my time waiting for log off. The thinking of staying in the office for the next seconds kills me. Once the clock strike 1330hrs, I pack my bag and leave the office even when the phone is ringing like someone calling 999 for help.. I DON'T GIVE IT A DAMN.

Then after reaching home, hoping to have a peace of mind and cool myself down, so I plan to bring NIKI for a basic grooming. I love to have hubby's and NIKI's accompany whenever I am down. After NIKI's grooming, feeling a bit better, I decided to meet up Yvonne. Initially supposed to meet her for shopping but due to my emo which I didn't wanna affect her, I decided to give it a miss. But after NIKI's grooming, I think I should meet Yvonne up for a dinner or so for repaying back the aeroplane I put on her. Near to 8 plus, I drove her to her KI TOH LOK gang for a BBQ. And meet up Jac, Xue Er, Elvin, Alex & Alan. They are a cute bundle of friends to mix with. Rather a more open friends and those which kept everything in the heart and planning for something evil to sabotage you. "Yvonne, glad that you have them as your friends, and thank you for recommending them to me. Got chance can join in you KI TOH LOK gang with hubby". After all these event feeling better till Sunday.

Who knows, Monday is another shit again. My manager told me on last Wednesday that she have not enough shift to plan the manager roaster when I requested to work on Public holiday 10am to 3pm. When she said she had not enough shift and ask me to work from 8am to 3 pm, I agreed as I don't want another manager to suffer cos of me. But when I ask the roaster on Monday, I came to know that she herself and her favourite mgr was off on that day. WTF is this, you are telling me you got not enough shift on that day and yet she plan herself and her favourite to off on that day.. What is the world coming too? Out of anger, I decided not to give her any roaster for the next week, guess wad she smsed me. "Berlin, you really cannot work meh. I really got not enough shift" I replied "Sorry, my boss is giving me the GST account to consolidate" (this is true, she is really giving me the account) then she smsed again "Really cannot help ar. If I got shift where got I ask you to contribute de.. Up to you lah, you see urself lah." I didn't replied her after that. I feel like telling her, every time you would tell me you have not enough shift and yet its either you work on mid shift or take AL or there are times, which we don't see you walking in if there is another manager working with you. I do not wish to bring out everything single things she had done here. In Chinese saying Wen (4) Xin (1) Wu (2) Kui (4), I don't care if she complain to "HIM". I won't give it a damn.

Till now, my burning heart is still flaming. I seriously considering to convert back to a staff rather then staying in this political management which we are always the sacrifices. But don't worry about me friends. I will be okie in no time. I just need to vent out all my anger nia.. Prolly need a food therapy soon. Anyone care to join me..???


P/S : If you are reading my blog and knows who I am referring too and if so happen it is referring to you, I apologise for my bluntness. But this is what is in my heart, I have the right to say and slash out here.. If not happy, don't read then.

Random Photos!! (Finally I did it)

Alright, finally upload the some photos.. In fact I should have more photos to load up. But after browsing through it, I find some of the photos are few mths back liao.. Hahahaha.. So what I did, I deleted the photos away.. Hmm.. Guess Yvonne muz be yelling @ me now.. (Gal, pai seh ar, I lazy to upload so many at one shot, so I chose to delete the photos.)

Back to the photos.. Remember I mentioned before Yvonne's new buddy PRINCESS.. I've taken a few photos with her when I visited Yvonne @ Square 2 (yup yup, she brought her puppy to her shop)..


Look at her.. Isn't she cute.. Wahaahaha.. She look the same as NIKI when he was young.


She is so gorgeous.. Simply irresistible


Here is NIKI.. He is too tired after being chased by PRINCESS when I bring him to visit Yvonne


He seems a little pissed off with my N95 camera flash.. Wahahaha *Smirk*

Next is my outing with my KFC managers and staffs for one of my staff YuXiang's farewell. He is leaving for NS..


Yummy *Slurp* Our food BBQing wor.. Waiting and waiting and waiting.......


Enjoying our foods..


After our food, plannin for some games.


Our usual game, Zhong Ji Mi Ma.. Loser will have to use the charcoal and draw the face. So end up on 4 out of 9 player kanna..


Can't stop laughing after seeing each other's silly drawn face.

That's all folks.. End of all the photos.. I suppose I should be hard working to download the photo once I've taken it.. Had been lazy for the past few mths.. Too many functions to attend liao..

Errm.. Friends around me had been asking what happen to me on Friday and Saturday. Why am I so so freaking down for that day? Well, its all about office issue. I personally feels that the office sucks. I feel that my pride is totally tear down by my lady boss. I feel that I have been accuse of stuffs which I have not done. She don't give me the chance to explain why I did that, all she say "Wrong means wrong, no need to explain anymore.." with an add on "Use your brain lah, so stupid de meh.. Use your brain in future hor" Infact, I have use my brain but she refuse to give me the chance to make decision. I need to ask for her approval before doing anything. The fact is that she is busy with her own stuff and did not listen properly on my proposal and she push the responsibility when things happen.. Funny yah! Her late decision turns out to my fault and my no brain and my stupidity.. Enough, I have enough of all her insultations. I wanna return her the money and throw the resignation. I need my pride back, I want my confident back.

Actually Saturday was the worst day I ever had.. Totally no mood and had cried for several hours. (Find me stupid? Say me lousy. I just can't stand accusation.. I can't.. ) I decided to spend my time with NIKI instead of going out shopping with Yvonne. (Cancelled the appointment with her cos I do not wish to affect her with my mood). After bring NIKI for a nice trim cut and bath, I visited Yvonne. After which, She intro me to some of her friends at a BBQ session. Nice friends to mix with. But a little sad where Hubby wanna leave the place early as he was tired.

Yvonne, pai seh hor.. Did not stay late thought you friends are really fun.. Hope to invite you and them to Alan's Birthday BBQ @ Downtown East wor! Ke Yi Ma?

I think I should log off soon cos my eyes are shutting down real soon.. Don't even know what I am typing.. Not linking at all.. A lousy post I have written. But pls forgive me. Like the title say, its just a random post.. So I just type wad randomly came to me.. Good nite guys... Tataz!!

Hope She is getting better

Finally her sweet story had ended and it ended abruptly. I know she is now feeling very very pain and sad. I tried to do everything to make her back to her usual self and I knew that this needs a long time to heal cos I ever had this failure too. Feeling sad and pain with her is all I can do now. Going thru with her on the road she is facing now is to helps her up when she tumble. She has no one who she can truely turn to and I hope my present can ease her and bring her comfort.

After so much things that had happen to her, I feel the pain, I am sad, I feel angry for her but I can't do anything to help her. At times, I feel helpless. I can't even help my BFF in her problem. I am USELESS. I wanna everyone beside me to feel happy but I am making her painful when every time I visited her. At one time, I wanna shut myself away from her so she can calm her mood down and not keep thinking of that rascal. But I can't bring myself to do that. How can her BFF dump her when she is so much in need.

And yes!! Times does the healing. Time after time, she is getting better, though sometimes she is alittle emo. But I truely believe that she will go thru it and I believe with me and Princess around her, she will be able to. Oh yah! You guys must be thinking who is Princess ba... She is my daughter-in-law which is Yvonne's daughter. Hahaha.. We went to buy puppy together at Pasir Ris Pet farm. The breed that she chose is Maltese and mine is a Maltese too. So when Princess grow up, Niki will be her bf and they can start to breed, then we will become grannies by then.. Wahahahaha... *Knocks my head*

Hope she gets better everyday. I know she will return my Yvonne back to me.. =)

This song specially deciated to my BFF

Yesterday, I was watching the Entertainment News (娛樂百分百) host by Show Luo Zhi Xiang & Xiao Gui. They were interviewing Elva Hsiao on her new ablum - 3 Face Elva. One of the songs she recommend was 两个人的寂寞. Its about 2 person who don't love each other already but still refuse to tell each other to break off due to that kinda "Use to it" feeling. But if the relation is gonna hold on to it due to that kinda of feeling & not cos of love.. Then no point being together le.. Be seperated will sometimes do good to ownself or even to the other part.

Gal, I hope you will be strong and I promise you this, I will not dump you as a friend. But you need to promise me too that you will stand up as soon as possible..

Hate = Love = Hate

Someone once tells me "If there is hate meaning there is love. If there is no love there should be no hate". After all these years I've been thru from the age of 15 and I do believe in that. I have always been saying this too, "God had been fair to everyone of us. You will have this and will have to lose that too.. It's pretty fair and I've very much accept what God is giving us.

Recently a BFF of mine is really down and is in the darkest of her life now. I have been trying to pull her out of the dark hole but she choose to stay in there. It hurts me to see her being a mud in that dark hole. "Running away from anything doesn't help you solved the problem. Facing it bravely is the only way. I know its hard to know how you really feel cos only you yourself will know the true feeling in you. But before acting on anything, I suppose you should think of the people around you who is concern about you. Open up yourself and be brave to face all the obstacles. Life is like this nothing sweet from the initial."

For me, too, feeling rather bad since last Saturday. I seriously hate to quarrell with mum. Yah me Princess Fiona had a heat argument with my mummy.. That's bad ya.. But I can't control my temper. She seems to have change another person. She became more and more selfish even to her own children and also became more and more paranoid. I can't stand all these nonsense. What really happen was, she promised me something and dunno for what farking reasons, she change her mind again. She had been changing her mind over and over again. I seriously don't know what her friends had been "physcoling" her.. Damn it! My plan are all wreck by her. Guess much my holiday for this December to Korea will down too the drain too..

Arrrgghhhh... Don't wanna say much on these too.. It's making my blood boil again... Too many things had happen in these few days. I hope all my friends and kins around me will be happy and free from trouble always.

"GOD, pls give them more sweets to sweeten their lives and stop feeding them your bitter gourd."

I Feel it to Buddy

This few days I have been a little down. Don't know if is due to my menses or is it due to one of my BFF Princess Yvonne. Recently, she is a little down due to something something (not able to reveal without her permission).

Last Friday, she called me saying she is not feeling good and hope that I can bring her to the beach. She need the sea breeze to clear her mind, she needs someone to be by her side. Went to Yishun dam to look for her and found her there. She was sitting lonely in the rain, looking blankly @ the waters. This hurts me. What is happening to her. First time seeing her this way. At that very time, I hope my presence can make her at least happy to know that someone is always there to listen her woes when she needs it. After listening to her, I can understand what she is facing now. I hope all these will end real soon and hope her someone special can bring back my old Yvonne. It's a heartbreak to see her cry. Hey! Don't get the wrong idea! I am not a LES.. I am easily affected by my friends emotion. They sad, I will to be sad.

Gal.. You need to stay strong.. Remember.. There is always someone by your side.. You are always been loved..

Oh.. Another BFF was in trouble too.. She (Esther) had an accident on last Sunday. And that idiotic driver of the other party initially admitted that he had not expected that she came so fast that's why he cut into his lane. But who knows the next moment, he says that it was her who cut into HIS bloody farking lane. Oops. See I am again so agitated. I can't stand such an idiotic person. Hmmm... Then Esther came over to my workshop for E-filing. Thanks to her, she *pichak my lobang*.. (Shall be a secret). Anyhow, the quote that my KNN manager quoted was very high and her boyfriend's workshop quoted cheaper so she decided to let them repair the car. Ofcos the repair cost is paid by the idiotic nice third party driver.

I really hope God will give my happiness to them, make them happy always. Keep all the troubles away from them..

Tataz....

Warmth can be still found in this world

Lots of people around me include myself keep saying that nowsaday the society is getting more and more cold (in terms of relationship). Nobody is ready to help each other or even give a little concern to their friends or even their next ones. But recently, I came to know that I was all wrong.. WRONG! WRONG! WRONG!!!

There are still warmth in this present world.. I was not feeling well since last week and all my friends and even Pingsters are all very concern about me.. I am really touched.. Now I feel my pressence in this world.. THANKS GUYS & GALS for your concern and regards. I am alright now although still feeling the pain..




Haiz... talking about my pain.. After 2 days of working in KFC after my full time job, my spine pain seems had slowly creeping in.. Initially, after a long week break, I don't really feeling the sharp pain anymore. (only feeling abit sore and slight pain). But now, it seems that I am starting to feel the sharp pain.. Haiz... I hope it do goes off by next week.. Otherwise I will really have to go back to see the doctor again..




Alright better choaz before my boss walked in..

It's My Bithday

It's my birthday yesterday. Sad to say that I have lotsa of things haven't done yet. Things like changing my blogskin is still dangling around in my fingertips..


I've celebrated my 27th birthday last Saturday with a few of my close friends @ home having steam boat. I must thank them for giving me a wonderful birthday party. Having gathering around the table, munching the food, gossiping behind people's back (Yvonne, you know what I am talking about huh..), talking nonsense stuffs are an enjoyable things to do. Oh.. I must thank them for the birthday presents too.. This year I have received a Addidas Watch, a red sling bag, a mug, a hong bao and a perfume, and the most importantly is I really love it all.. Actually had taken some photos and shall upload it when I have the time. Too busy with my Hongkong drama series (that's the reason behind the lacking of sleep..) :p


On Sunday, didn't do anything. Basically "nuahing" at home and went back to mum's house for late lunch and dinner.


On Monday had meet up with Justin, Shanna and Jenny for a birthday dinner. Ofcos mine and another one is Jenny.. Forgot to wish her too.. Happy Birthday Jenny!! We went to a Japanese restaurant for a ala-crate buffet. Again, we started to talk nonsense. This is us when we are in secondary school days. Talking nonsense and laugh loudly is mine and Shanna's hobby.. *giggle* Pictures taken by Jenny and was send to me via facebook.. That's why I can upload the photo here.. Now let the pictures do the talking.

Food there was not bad one but the service is bad.. Expecting a higher service but wasn't given. Not really worth of money. I personally thinks that Sakae sushi's buffet would be a better spread.

On 28th May, it's my actually day of birthday. When the clock strike 12 am sharply, hubby called me over my phone (I was working in KFC @ that time). He actually sang a birthday song for me (Chinese and English version). At that point of time, I was like.... floating up to Mars. Yes, I know you may think that what's that special to be happy about.. But do you know, if your love one does a surprise for you, be it a mushy one or a childish one, you will still feel happy and sweet about it. At least I know I am standing in a place where is so near to the core of hubby's heart. In short, I am his everything.. Thanks dear I love you so much.. Back to topic, the next person to sms me with blessing is May than followed by Alif.. I must really thank them for remembering my birthday.. It's really happy to know that at least there are more than one person who are concern about me. No special meal was planned by hubby for the actual day as mum wants us to go home and have dinner. We headed home for dinner after work. Yes, I still have to work.. Mum gave me a surprise by cooking 2 hard boiled eggs except for the mee sua cos I don't really take that. Thanks mum! After dinner, hubby gave me another surprise again, this time is my gift. Never had I expected to receive a present from him cos he already spend rather alot for the Saturday party. He have given me a PSP slim.. Yay! Yay! Finally owe a PSP.

No luxious dinner, no hard core partying, just a simple meal with my family members and friends is more then enough. Hoping nothing will not change next year. XOXO Hubby, Mummy, Yvonne, Karen, Serene, Royce, Victor, Yibin, Vincent Ng, Vincent Tan, Geling, Justin, Shanna, Jenny, Alif, May, Rina, Yuxiang, Leo and many more who had send me ur blessing.. May god bless you guys too...

What are best friends for?

Yesterday, one of my staff ask me a question. "What are best friend for?" (You know who u if you are reading my blog..) :)

And today, after a little chat over the phone with hubby, I finally know what are best friends or should I say real friends are for. This conversation knocks and awakes my head... I feel bad and I know hubby feel bad too... This is what actually happen earlier between hubby and his so-called best friend Mr V.. Mr V called up this morning asking hubby to help him buy 4D as he is now @ Malaysia. Without second words, hubby ask him to sms over the nos. so he can help Mr V to buy. Then later in the afternoon, hubby called up Mr V (although he is @ Malaysia and hubby have to pay for the oversea call charges.) to inform Mr V that a few of the nos. didn't managed to enter in. Then Mr V told hubby...

Mr V : "Ooi.. Yesterday I lose RM$5000 lei.. Then I ask Ms K to transfer me SGD$1000. Then hor I win back the RM$5000 and also win another $13,000."

Hubby : "Wah... So much ar.. Like that can treat us for dinner liao lor.."

Mr V : "Treat kee lan ar! Don't have lah! Oh don't tell my wife hor..."

Hubby : "Orh........." (-_- ")

See lah.. This type of friends also have... When hubby strike 4D for about $10K, he ask hubby to treat and again without second words, hubby brought them to a hotel restaurant to eat. Now, he win so much money and this is what he say to hubby... (Although it has got nothing to do with me, but I am feeling lousy, pissed off, mad.. How can he treat my hubby like an idiot?)

Before this issue, they had another conversation. And when hubby told me this, deep in my heart I have already decided. I will never treat Mr and Mrs V as one of my best friends, or even close friends, They shall only remain as common and I mean very common friends in my heart.

Mr V : " Come lei, go cruise with us lah.. Arbo boring lor.. Cannot play cards."

Hubby : "No lah.. No money liao.. Dry up after moving new house."

Mr V : "Come lah.. You guys can find way de.."

(On the day of moving house, they have already asked once and we told them we are really broke.
And both of them says they will borrow us the money to go, when we come back then return them.)

Hubby : "No lah.. Serious no money lah.. Still need to go Korea this December"

(Hubby was trying out if he says the same thing anot.) But but......!!!!!!.......

Mr V : "The 2 of you don't go also good lor. At least we can save money.. Cos 4 in 1 room rather then 3 in 1

room.. Like that can save up to $100 over lor.."
(Faint... This is from his fuking mouth.. This last sentence really pissed me off..)

Hubby : "Okie lor, then we are not going anymore.. SO YOU GUYS CAN SAVED!"

I really can't believe that the words did came out from his freaking mouth.. This is way tooo much.... From now on, I seriously needs to think if we are going Korea with them.. But come to think, Ms K and Mr R is going for the Korea trip too lei.. They are my BEST FRIEND and they will always BE..

Answer to the question above :

1. A best /real friend should be one who is willing to share woes and happiness with you.
   
2. A best/real friend will always be at your side whenever you need them.
   
3. A best/real friend will never look down on you when you are in deep shit.
   
4. A best/real friend will be your listener or adviser.
   
5. A best/real friend will lend you their shoulder to cry.
   
6. A best/real friend will never ever laugh at you if you are a dumb.
   

This is what I call best friends are for.. I need to thank the following people as they are my best friends who won't hurt me and bring me happiness.

• Esther (Friends since Primary 4)
  
• Justin (Friends since Sec 2)
  
• Yvonne (Friends since ITE Colleage)
  
• Karen (Friends since age 13)
  
• Royce (Friends since age 14)
  

Thanks guys for being my best friends. Thanks for not hurting me. Thanks for lending me your helping hand or listening ear whenever I need it.. Thanks for your everything. Hope you guys will remain in my heart position. And ofcos, I do have other friends which are close too.. Hope we will be friends forever wor..

"They" are haunting you?

Before I start off with the little story on the title I stated in my blog title, I shall give a little debrief on my new house renovation progress.

The renovation is coming to an end, and they are starting to clear up. Been there to do a sudden check 2 days before with hubby and the results is good but if you look into details, it sucks. Cast aside the additional cost issue which I have to pay for no reason (Which I think that he is treating me like a "carrot"), the PAINT WORK they gave me simply pissed me off. THERE ARE MARKS ON THE WALLS.. The marks are like as though they had painted and accidentally touch it when semi dry. Then they just paint over the damaged paint without doing anything.. (Know? The liquid paper have not dry and you write on it, it become like a mark and you use liquid paper to go over it again.) *Faint* I had feedback to hubby regarding this issue and ask him to tell the contractor. When hubby told him regarding my issue, the contractor replied "OH.. It's like that de.." *KOAZ* This is crappy.. Don't give me nonsense lor.. Luckily Wilson is helping me out to trash things out with him.. ERr.. Maybe not trash.. Hahaha.. Thanks Wilson anyway.. (BTW Wilson is Yvonne's boyfriend, a very helpful man.)

Alright that's for all lah.. Too long for my debrief. Now next story about Yvonne.. She have not been sleeping well these few nights. Hmmm I supposed should be about 4 days le ba.. It's all because of her White butterfly issue.. Shall not say much about her butterfly thingy.. Maybe you may link to read more from her blog and get a better understanding.. I bet after you read it.. You must be thinking how can it be.. She must be too tired or stress or worn out and cause her imagination runs wild.. Listen here, I know this gal for more and 5 years and she used to double tired or stress or worn out.. But she did not tell me this type of things before. Me freak out when she told me her encounter and I am really worried of her.. I am worried that she might not be able to hang on.. Told her to go to the temple and pray and get an amulet if available to ward off any evil. She JUST SIMPLY REFUSE..



"GAL I am angry liao wor.. Pls do something to it.. You may get hurt if you don't do so."



You guys may say I am too superstitious.. But nothing in this world is not possible.. You won't believe it if you don't see it.. And yes I am ghost is what I saw before and I raised both my legs and hands to agree on such things is available in this world... And I belief that Yvonne could have disturb the White butterfly and the butterfly is revenging or purely wanna disturb her.. A piece of advise to everyone, do not try to catch / kill / TAKE PHOTOs a butterfly which is flying around in your house. My mum says, those butterflies are usually with spirits in them. How can one butterfly fly in the middle of the night in your house and furthermore your house got no flowers?



God.. I pray you could help Yvonne and let her overcome this.. Amitaba.. :)



Sorry, still no photos yet.. Pls bear with me yah..



Phew long post this time..